My Poems (completed)

Drained

But what’s left of me?
I’m sitting here dieing,
Moving on can be so hard
Moving on can seem so long
I know I’ll get through it all
But one thing I never asked you
Was to say you love me
Take you sin and shove it up your
Apologies don’t take away the pain
One thing I never asked you was
For you to love me too
And now it’s my fault your in San Diego
Or so you at least there is no proof that you even know me
I’m sure your daddy’s proud
Because
Moving on can be so draining
Moving on with her complaining
I know that you planned to go
Before you woke up lieing next to me
Sure let me take all the blame, this song isn’t about my blame
Let me live my separate life
I don’t care about your strife
Sleep tonite you little girl
Moving on is my great hardship
Moving on is my commitment
So pack your bags, wait you’re gone
What made this relationship so wrong?
And as I move out of depression
I also move out of obsession
Your idol words shall never touch my heart again…

Like a journalists prominade

It was the way you covered me.
Or was it the way you brought me down…
Could have been how you noticed me
Why did you skip town on me
My heart was broken,
But did it stay that way for you?
We could have made better decisions
They were like ice in the oven
I know now you fall
Fall into the dirt
Your regret is my despair
Anger drawn forthwith to determine
I am forced to determine
I am forced and wrenched
There is the stain of blood
There is the strain of love
But what listens to what is dead?

Eye Opener

Firstly, I know that you meant it
And secondly
I know that Every single moment
You were wanting
But it wasn’t there
It never was here or there
That you worried about

Waist-ing time
Barbering our deepest
With scissors of truth
Hiding both from me
And to a hello
What’s a lie when nothing isn’t?
Can I even tell the truth anymore?
Now I am wanting

I’ll say this much
That I am dry
I am weak
And that’s why
My eyes are open
Because I could never cry
Over a simple haircut,
Until I met you

I never did
Tried to never speak?
Just kiss me
So that my eyes may stay closed.

What really happens/ed to your/the dairy (or; is knowledge power)

I was sick on that bed
Clothed and yet you were naked
For there it sat on your bedside table
Was it as inspiring as your bedside manner

I stared gladly upon it
And you know that what was in there
Was what I had wanted it to be
Is this my chance,
Will there be romance?

Did I obey your trust?
Yes
But still
Your anger fetched a pretty price
And my reputation
Was broke like an unemployed baby

I didn’t
You know I didn’t
Because I wasn’t ready
I never read your souls sole desires

What really happens
When a girl is read like the open book
That is written
By herself? All I know

Is that it was closed
and
When you opened it
Was when you got angry with me for reading it
You know who really read it…
He took yours in my sleep
But your rage was like the pages written in your loves blood

“This will be the best year ever”
It was said on your covers
Why wasn’t it? Why
Couldn’t you be in love with me?
No
You would have nothing to write

I’m not good / Take away

I know that I’m not good enough for you,
I know that my hear may not be good or true
But deep down inside, I feel a life coming out
And a blessing… never ending

So I’m going to say goodbye to my sins
Goodbye to the world
Goodbye to my hurt
Your love is unfurled
Goodbye to something inside that just aint right for me…

Take away my pain today
Help me Wash (away what kept me unclean)
Take away my sins today
Show me (what it means to know love)

For both of you

You know who each of you are
I can’t
I never did

One was blind
The other was dead
But still could stand
And go to church

But that’s not what you really did
Going to church
Every Sunday with
The only intention
You both shared

The blind didn’t know
Where she was
Because
Neither of you really did

Why did I become 2 too? Both of I are without your blind eyes. Blind like a mole

a Piece of our Shit

Feels like only yesterday
You and I would see eye to eye
Blasting our boundaries
With only one knife
With the love and the Bible
We spoke
With a loud and a sharp tongue
Living on the edge
Our minds looking into a mirror

Twice is too much
It wasn’t even the best
Did it hurt?
Knifes hurt
But we use the same knife
Cutting away
a piece of our shit

Was it all Shit? Just shit?
Was it all shit to you?
Shit I can’t get over it
It feels like a dream, or an anthem
Playing in my head, confusing me
Was it meaningless shit?
That kiss

It could have been more romantic
It couldn’t have been more weakening
Knives are weakening…
Your dark lips
Rose red
Your eyes brown like shit
All of the places our shit had to fall
At least you smiled when I hugged her
You caused some shit you know

That kiss was shit too you
Have you ever shit gold?
Because this shit is gold
And it hurts like knives

Jackoff

Could it have been
Every weak
You watched me play
Weakly
Did it start
When I was a weak behind
Because the races
Are indignant

I acted so dumb at the concert
We shared what was unforgettable
And I didn’t even know
That you didn’t know

He was making use of your friendship
He needs To kill his self pity
But he never understood
Jacking off to your picture
Was turning him into a monster
which wasn’t what we want when we went without waiting
but it happened
and he made me think twice
before I ever mentioned his name again
because I told everyone

I get frustrated to think it was your first kiss
Because it was so good
It was killing him
He who said
He was already dead
I hate him

This song begans with K

No it doesn’t
It never started my way
It had to be like I lived a million miles
From anything that was happy

The song never begans
Because your letter isn’t in this frea*ing poem
I hate that letter
It means nothing,
And can be replaced
With a higher grade
Latin doesn’t even have that letter really

you are pretty
but that ma*es my life that much easier
bekause I am not really afraid
you kan sing your song
but keep it from me, ok?
and now it’s begun to kill

I’m done with you fuc*ing around with me
Your song is over, k?

Know it

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I know you care for me
But is that anyway to show it? It’s hard too
I know it

But maybe we should sleep
Sleep on the ideas
Before sleeping with each other

I know it
But is there anyway to say it? I don’t know
Maybe I’m blind

But did it occur to you, that this relationship was threw
Before it started? I think this song just needs to be sung.
I’m so vulnerable when you touched me I wasn’t aware that we weren’t in love

Lowed

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Pull me down
With whatever intentions
You may have.
Contact,

My self,
With your self

Pull me down,
Bite me, touch me as
We lay silent
For hours,

Ourselves…
Close, warm, soft.

However I can
Make you feel special I
Want too try
Here,

In peace
And comfort

When I close the lids off my eyes

When I close the lids of my eyes, kissing,
Holding, touching, feeling you. Seeing you…
I will not know where I am. What’s the point?
Knowing so little? There is so much here.

If we’re to be in the depths of the sea
The fish’s fins flapping in the dark blue…
If we’re to be high among the mountains
The fog and clouds aligned as one, thin air

Or what if we’re in the dark or the night?
Hidden by all but the light of the moon?
We breathe in sequence, close and dark, loomless
What’s too worry when there is nothing to see?

I wouldn’t care as much as I do for you
For when you are here… for when you are near.

And on the green mountains what would we see?
The mist and rain, the trees and the rivers…
What animals would run by? I don’t know.
There is better to know, to be concerned.

And the valley’s of the mountains, lush, low,
In it people that we know, places to go…
Things rushing past them, all seem unneeded.
What’re they when they are not in the mountains?

And with your eyes, reflecting by the sun,
Your hair fallen on your shoulders and neck
You say “can it work?” “Can we make it out?”
It works on our mountain top, only there.

Let us bring our mountain down, forward, down.
Let us make this mountain our world t’gether

What is special
Should not be hidden
I do not care what they say

To much about you
Is too wonderful to see
Unless you are close enough

To hear you breathe
To taste your scent
To hear your voice

late at night
in the evening

my winter time is when your voice falls on my ears like snow flakes

my summer time is when your smile glows in the light

my spring time is when our flower of affection blossoms

my fall is when I know you’ve picked me up

and when I open my eyes, I know I have had to closed them. I know what happened.

it felt like lightning

it crept like a chill

it was good

it reminds me of nothing

and it feels like everything

A Love Monopoly

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It’s just a little game

Just a drama to keep you busy

The more you move the less you hate

All the things that you’ve been through

The work and friends, parties and make outs

Can’t seem to satisfy

Your need for feeling

All that I’ve given

I don’t regret it

But you could at least see how much

I need you to give back

Because I lose my faith in you if you

Can’t even sacrifice

Is it just you acting out?

Because it felt like love,

Though maybe not the sort you marry on

But who knows

I sure don’t know much

Change

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This isn’t what I bargained for,
This isn’t what I expect
When I feel I’m alright; I’m really out of control
That my movements have to be double good
That my intent isn’t enough, my heart is less
Then my actions…

What’s good for You isn’t good for the world
And You are good for the world
What is needed to us is not needed to you
But you have knowledge in both.

What a joyous God that isn’t bound
Bound by our pride, our need, our un-understood.
I should swallow what I know about pride
Other then its consequences

Decent

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And coming down the stairs
I see the light glinting
Let me turn around;

I hear your favorite song
Let me turn around
And see you there again

Daily I walk, and when
I have something to say
I’ll still dial your number
Sometimes I’ll push “send”
And in a fit I hang up
Tears will still roll for you

You’ve been gone
You’ll stay gone
There’s nothing I do
If only you were there
When I kissed her at the bus stop
You would have proud

You never met her and never will